the media is a potent source of distraction,particularly the google box called TEEVEE.

I sat through many drama serials and doctumentaries today on the black sofa which has now given me backaches.I have done nothing for my mugging for phy and chem mcq.oh and chinese letter writing formats.

time passes real slowly today.and when 2012 advertisements screen on the tv,I cant help but feel abit guilty for whiling my time away like this,when the world may end in 2012.but then again,theres nothing much you can and want to do until the o's are completely cleared for the rest of the year by the end of this week.

I am currently somehow starved of really good music to sing to and exercise my diaphragm.

I want to change my blogskin soon.gotta find nice pictures to snap and transform into a skin for da blog!

anyway,ciao now.I promised myself not to visit facebook till after o's,so I'll just loiter around in cyberspace.



"...vanished with our years as mist with sunrise."

lovin' the taste of total freedom of my heart(:

I'm glad that the o's are ending too,though I'm not exactly sure what I want to do after that.hmm,shall just draw up a list:

1.PICNIC/flying kites!
2.cycling
3.volunteer work for animals and the elderly
4.pick up guitar again,FOR REAL
5.flea market
6.beach!
7.star-gazing :D
8.DISNEY MOVIE MARATHON!
9.shopping!
10.zoo/night safari!

anyway,watched MJ's This Is It movie with aunt,sister and rebecca.somehow,I felt real sad when michael jackson spoke of his love for the Earth,the people,and the way he held his performers' hands and said "God bless you all,I love you all".

its funny how through that silver screen,his postmortem love stored in the videos has managed to emanate and somehow seep into the hearts of those in the theatre,such that nobody wanted to leave even though the credits were rolling,because his music was being played.I felt his genuine love for the world,and I feel so sad that his efforts to prepare for his final tour had been in vain.

but I like his final words in which he signed off, "love lives forever". it sounds a little too late,but I'm loving his songs even more now.

you've been hit by,you've been struck by a smooth criminal~ OW!

oh and yes,I have to write about this incident I had experienced today at j8 foodcourt.

I was talking to rebecca,and since I was facing her,I was oblivious to those behind me.however,through the sides of my eyes,I saw the lady behind me seeming bored and not eating her food.I just continued talking to her though.

and then,my sister nudged me.I wondered what had happened,so I turned around.guess what I saw.

I saw three ppl crowding around the long table,standing and folding their arms,wearing a pekcek expression on them.I looked down at the two empty chairs beside me and wondered why they didnt want to sit.then it dawned on me that they didnt want to sit because I was occupying their third person's seat.out of consideration and not wanting to cause trouble because I was in my school uniform,rebecca and I got up and left the foodcourt.

however,the funny thing is that they had been folding their arms for a very long time without making a sound,all this while having such long faces on them,with one of attempting to will me out from my seat through her miniscule-eyed gaze.

I was angry,because they made us teenagers look like inconsiderate people who just dont care about others,but then again,they did not even try to hint at us by saying "erm,are you guys done?"believe me,if they have nudged me,even though they look pissed,I will feel guilty and give them up since I had just finished my meal.

but nobody told me anything,and they were extremely silent.they stared at me as if I were dirt and had just commited murder.

I know that I should have the sense to turn around,but through my blurred eyesight,and coupled with the small-eyed woman's no-appetite expression,I really couldnt tell that she was EXPECTING us to give up her seat for her other three.

and my aunt later told me that there were actl empty seats behind them,and the seats are movable.

I didnt know that such royal families still exist in Singapore.I didnt know too,that I was one of the commoners who have to selflessly give up a seat to someone else,because the adults (in their 20s to late 30s) could not be bothered to take their seat from the next table,or had the initiative to nudge or say smth about it to us youngsters.

okay I've ranted enough.whatever it is,I hope there will be people in the future more aware and more daring enough to just sink their butts deeper into the seats and not let these people have their way by acting like tyrants.

goodnight.



I'M CHOKING ON MY LAUGHTER HAHAHAHAH!



my amaths,ahhhhh!

my brain is like,not working fast enough to solve problem sums.

oh and haha,just found an old video online.I hope it cracks me up enough to continue my work :D

anw,its reconcilation period,baby!I'm proud of the girls!

life is goodz!

except for the upcoming o's...



graduation day was good,but because its still technically not the end,so I wont dwell on it.

watched (500)days of summer with kim and rebecca at vivo today.good movie with an alternative perspective to love and letting go.

hansen is cute:D

anyway,I'm really glad that at the end of my 4 official years in zhonghua,I've managed to clear all sorts of whatever conflict/issues I have with people who matter to me alot,and now I'll work super hard for the o's!

but only after I have my well-deserved sleep,because I did the graduation gifts till 4 in the morning =/

anyway,thank you to all for the gifts,letters,photos,messages,friendship and love :D

goodnight to the sons and daughters of zhonghua!



I'm glad.really glad(:



Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do



found this in claudia's blog archives while browsing through it today.

this is the cutest photo of us four so far!certainly miss the old days.I'm not getting productive,and my graduation gift idea is turning out blah due to time constraints.but nvm hope they'll love my faces in it:D

I ought to trim my eyebrows somehow.I look nicer with nicer eyebrows,I think.








today feels great,except for the fact that I do not seem to have the mood to mug today.

I guess the workload is taking its toll on yours truly,and I'm getting abit sick of the routine of stuffing myself with the white sheets filled with question marks,in order for me to work my brains out for the answer.

I carried out a mission today for claudia ang,employing me as the agent Ho,along with agent Vong.it was quite fun being someone's santa claus(since I am HOHOHO!),though I told claudia her plan was abit weird and I felt like Tsao Sheng the servant in her essay about promises and a human-like God.

and I went with becks that giggly and "teh" girl to daiso to get inspiration for graduation gifts.honestly,this whole thing is giving me a big headache,though I have finally thought of smth pretty much from the heart.oh and the hands and brain too.but,I must see if my thoughts can actl translate into reality.

graduation is next week,but I'm not feeling the nostalgia like how I always do at such events.maybe its because of the O's thats arriving,so everybody is like geared up for the fight tgt as one cohort,and we'll be seeing one another all the way till the end of O's.

anyway,to give an insight to my originally wacky ideas for the graduation gifts, I had initial plans(which lasted three seconds) to print my SUPER DUPER UBER WHOOPER CUTE baby/toddler photos of me and distribute it to ppl.and maybe write words like "remember me!"

rebecca was worse,because she wanted to paste these googly eyes on photos that she may print out -_- but come to think of it,if I take out such a photo after 10 years,and I shake the photo,I will see the eyes shaking as well and I think I'll still laugh alot.maybe wacky gifts are not so bad.

speaking of photos,there was this part of the photo claudia printed out for my graduation gift had me looking like some chao ah lian/ah beng with super short hair,the usual spastic expression,the usual zits,and legs in a position where I was ready to whip out my half-baked martial arts skills(a random fact of the day:shannen joined wushu for her cca for two years plus,from pri 1 to pri 3.unfortunately,she never got a chance to try her hands at fake swords and long poles,because she couldnt do splits and wasnt flexible enough).

I think I looked so...uncouth in sec 2=/ but I think I have always been this uncouth and unglam.I think un- is such an apt prefix on me.come to think of it,it would have been really odd if I were someone GLAMOROUS.I cant imagine it at all.

okay anw just finished talking on the phone with that brother of mine and I am trying to get back at my homework.

and brainstorm about the gifts.